Posts by Nikki

There is always something to be thankful for.  During this season of my life, I have struggled to find joy in things.  Learning that my sweet baby has a life limiting illness and watching her struggle to do things that come so easily to most other babies has been heartbreaking.  Trying to come up with…

A few days ago I sat in an office of a highly respected doctor that I traveled 1000 miles to have evaluate my baby girl. She told me she didn’t believe my daughter would live past early childhood. I choose to love anyway. I’ve spent 6 days in a darkness that I can’t explain in…

Patience. Patience isn’t something that comes naturally to me. When my children make poor choices my instinct isn’t to calmly redirect; it is to yell. When the car in front of my is going under the speed limit my instinct is to yell and pound on the horn (yeah I’m that person, sometimes). When the…

Who am I? I ask myself this question often. For the past almost seven years, the answer has been a mom. Breastfeeding and babywearing were my “thing” I found my friends through these things. I found a job. I found a volunteer opportunity. I created an organization. These parenting acts have been a large part…

From the time my oldest child was an infant I have heard this phrase “you are your child’s biggest advocate.” I never understood just how true and vitally important that is until I had an infant with serious medical concerns. I’m 5 months in to my journey with Felicity and I’ve already learned a few…

I have spoken a lot about my journey through various life challenges. Sexual abuse, pregnancy loss, allergies, and now my infant who is quite ill. One of the hardest things I’ve faced is acceptance. Accepting that my experience isn’t lining up with my expectation. Accepting that what I believe to be true may not be.…

I have a confession. I don’t like pumping. In fact, I might hate it. I can’t quite decide if it’s the act itself or the reason I have to do it. Probably both. Whatever the reason, I despise it. 6-8 times a day I hook myself up to my good old friend the breast pump…

Summer is finally here. School is almost out. Activities are winding down. The sun is out. The temperature is rising. I really do love summer, but summer slump is real and with 2 kids in school I like to keep their minds active. Here are some fun activities we do during the summer to reinforce…

My fourth baby has come with a lot of challenges. In the blink of an eye I went from a 100% breastfeeding mama straight from the breast to a 100% exclusively pumping mama feeding through an NG tube. I had no idea how hard pumping was until I had to do it. This weekend we…

Breastfeeding. After 3 kiddos it should be easy right? Come naturally? You should know what to do and definitely not need any help, right? What happens when this baby is different? A medical need. A preference. Change in your life circumstance. There are countless reasons why different babies may need to be fed via different…