Posts by Nikki

We are a whole year into this pandemic.  I don’t know about you, but my kids are totally over it.  We also live in Chicago with its never ending winter and erratic weather.  Yesterday we were outside wearing t-shirts and today its freezing and snowing heavily.     I have 3 small active children who crave…

I remember February 25, 2019 very well. I woke up eager and excited. This was the day we were going to begin inducing Felicity. I knew I would meet the last missing piece of my puzzle soon. I went to the OB, then home to wait. My third birth was complicated by a partial placental…

It’s 10:30 pm. I’m laying in bed staring at my sweet baby. The same thing I’ve done for 20 months. She is beautiful. Delicate features. Wide eyes. Wild hair. Full cheeks despite her wasted body. Her skin wrinkles. Pale. Her mouth always holding her green pacifier. Her hand holding some wrapper. Legs curled in like…

When Felicity was born I never dreamed a year later we’d find ourselves in the middle of a global pandemic. Locked in our home. Unable to shop, dine out, or even play at the park. My school aged kids were suddenly at home doing so crisis version of remote learning. My kids are 7, 5,…

Exercise. I used to dread the word. Exhausting. Something I had to do. Burn calories. Never enough. Never correct. Never right. For so many years I have had the same twisted relationship with exercise as I did with food. It was never a tool that I used in any healthy way. Earlier this year, with…

We all do it. There’s tons of memes that are meant to be funny, and often are because they are so relatable. Finally admitting to my best friend that sometimes I yell and being surprised that she does too. Seeing another parent on the edge at the grocery store and feeling their fury deep in…

When I heard schools are closed in Illinois for the remainder of the school year in Illinois, I immediately thought of all of the seniors in high school who will miss all of those rites of passage that I remember so fondly. I thought of kids missing 8th grade graduation. I even thought of kids…

February 26, 2019. 5:44 am. I had no clue what was to come. Felicity was born fast and furious. She came out an odd shade of blue and was whisked away quickly. This was normal, all of my babies came out quiet. What wasn’t normal was the sounds I heard when I was finally able…

Seven Years. I spent 7 years of my life breastfeeding. 4 babies. Sometimes tandem. Sometimes pregnant. Sometimes I loved it. Sometimes I did not. 7 years is a very long time. If my guesstimate is correct I breastfed for approximately 2000 days. I donated probably that many ounces. I exclusively nursed, pumped, and just about…